Wednesday, February 15, 2012

RIP my baby boy [brayden]

Brayden was born on February 10th, 2010 and passed away on February 13th 2012. Experiencing something like this was the best/worst feeling ever. The best because we enjoyed brayden the 3 days that he was here and gave him all the love that he needed also he changed our lives so much in so many ways. We love him so much and he will never be forgetten. Hes watching over us now.. God wouldnt put us through anything that we couldn't handle. The worst part of it is, losing our little guy i didnt want to let him go... wish that things could of been different and we could of took him home but he had a different plan. I want to be able to love on him and kiss on him but know that it can't be that way.. i can still love him though.
Brayden mommy and daddy love you so much, there isn't a way to explain how much that we love you.

here are some pictures of brayden. hes the cutest baby ever.

Monday, February 6, 2012

Thursday, February 2, 2012

36 weeks 5 days

Doctor appointment today was okay, not really all that i wanted to hear though. Brayden hasnt gained any weight since last week but my doctor said that its normal sometimes they stay the same weight or even weigh a little less and that she will be more concerned next week if he hasnt gained any, which i hope that he does. His heart rate was a little bit lower today but as long as it doesnt get under 110 he should be fine, it was 122 bpm. He was moving alot though, didnt get to see his face or anything because hes to big in there and all scrunched up, im just ready to meet our little guy!! I have been so itchy lately and my doctor said sometimes pregnant people just get that way, so i got some benedryl hopefully that helps but had to get my blood drawn to make sure that it isnt something that can cause still birth, YIKES i hope not :( Im just all worried now. But on a good note my c-section is scheduled for Feb 17th at 8:45 in the morning, im excited/scared i hope everything goes better than what doctors tell us i have faith though.